Summary and full transcription:

The speaker, Alice, shares her personal experience of being delivered from a struggle with masturbation, which she frames not merely as a sin or lust, but as a spiritual stronghold tied to a “spiritual spouse”—a demonic entity she believes oppressed her since age 12. Recorded the night after her deliverance by a man of God, she argues that masturbation, unlike fornication or adultery, is often underestimated by Christians despite its severe consequences, such as sabotaging one’s destiny, relationships, and blessings. She attributes her issue not to pornography or erotic fiction (which she avoided), but to an inherited iniquity—a generational curse in her bloodline—possibly linked to occult practices like fortune-telling, which she also broke free from.

Alice describes how this spiritual spouse caused delays in her life (e.g., “almost syndrome” in ambitions, finances, and relationships) and stole opportunities, a realization confirmed during deliverance when her ring finger bent, symbolizing a spiritual marriage. Despite fasting, praying (including Derek Prince’s prayers), and repenting, she couldn’t overcome it alone until confessing to the man of God, who saw her struggle in the spirit and performed a 20-30 minute deliverance. Physical manifestations (crying, hand spasms, finger bending) marked the demon’s exit, leaving her free and relieved.

She emphasizes that confession weakens demonic power (per scripture), but full deliverance requires surrender, not pride, and ongoing discipleship to prevent re-oppression. Alice warns that masturbation, even without external triggers, is demonic—not mere sex drive—and urges viewers to confess to trusted Christians, seek deliverance, and avoid isolation, as the devil targets lone individuals. She contrasts socializing (self-focused) with serving (others-focused) and prays for viewers to break free from similar bondages, invoking the Holy Spirit to fill and heal them.

Key Takeaways: Masturbation is a serious spiritual issue costing destiny, often linked to spiritual spouses or iniquity. Alice’s deliverance came through confession and a man of God’s intervention, and she advocates confession, deliverance, and discipleship for lasting freedom, sharing her story to encourage others to break silence and seek help.

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I want you to keep watching this video, okay? Because masturbation is not just lust. It's not just lust. Listen to me very carefully. It's not just lust. It's not just something that God is not happy about it. It's not just something that the next day morning you say, I am sorry Lord, I repent, cleanse me. Even if you fast and pray, if you keep doing it, if it keeps coming back to you every week every other week every month and you are a Christian you're already being saved you you you repent of your sin you even fasted for it but you still keep doing it it is a stronghold so first of all acknowledge that it is a stronghold there's something deeper than that maybe you know the the the spirit came through you through pornography and maybe it's through erotic fiction, maybe it's through demonic music, lustful music. If it's not from any of those channels you just stop doing it. It's not sex drive. It's probably an iniquity that is inherited in your family and that is what happened to me. And I will be telling you in detail how I got delivered just yesterday.

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Okay, so I record this video the very night after I was delivered. And I realized I need to record this opening to tell you, you know, the significance of this sin of masturbation and how it really sabotage your destiny. And the second part is that I know a lot of brothers you know I really appreciate them to Talk about pornography and you know hold each other accountable you guys are amazing You know I am your cheerleader for you always But I also wanted to point out something about that most people didn't address is that masturbation And I believe that most believer don't take it as seriously as fornication, as adultery, because they don't see that it has as much damage. You might think, you know, as long as I tell God I am sorry, or I act like I'm sorry, I have the blood of Jesus, I'm forgiven, and no condemnation is for those who are in Christ but that scripture is not finished. So I'm going to put the finished scripture down there. It's not just no condemnation is given to those who are in Christ. But you actually need to actively seek Christ. So you have condemnation if you don't seek him.

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The cost of lust is destiny. Masturbation will cost you your destiny and I'll tell you why right now. Okay, I'll tell you why right now Before you see what happened to me, okay It cost you destiny because hear me out You don't just keep doing this Especially you already knew it's a sin. Especially you already give your life to Christ, especially you knew in Every way that you shouldn't be doing this but you keep doing it so you don't just keep doing something without something spiritual going on there you probably probably chances are really really high that you have a spiritual spouse i was married to a demon and i don't even know about it it manifested during the deliverance process that demon manifested because my ring finger bent at the end of the deliverance when I was free from that demon. Your spiritual spouse will steal relationships from you, especially good relationships, ok?

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Especially relationships that God gives you. Why? Because they are jealous, they are possessive. They think they owe you, they think they are your husband, they think they're your wife, they will not want anybody else want you. And more than that, okay, it's not just marriage. And you do feel that things in your life have been delayed. Like you have been pursuing something, whether that's your ambition, whether, you know, that's your finance, whether that's your marriage, it just didn't happen. Like every time it's about to happen, you got trapped in this almost syndrome. It's almost there. It's almost, almost, almost, I almost got it, I almost got there. It's always almost, never manifest, never truly happen.

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Because somebody stole it from you, and that is your spiritual spouse. Alright, so I hope you stick to this video till the end. I already cut out all the you know the fluff the BS, so I want to make sure that you stay it till the end and Like and share this video. Okay, save it to watch later if you can't finish. So thank you and now let's begin Deliverance is for the desperate. I was not desperate enough to seek deliverance and Today I was delivered by a man of God. I struggle with masturbation. I said I struggle because I repented.

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I prayed a prayer of deliverance, the Derek Prince prayer, to deliver me from that sin. I have fasted, I have prayed, I've done everything I could except telling somebody to deliver me from it. So it's not like I planned this in my heart, it just happened. It just happened that this man is so anointed that he sees in the spirit. He sees my struggle. He knew what I'm gifted in. He said I am a dreamer. I've been dreaming since I was a kid. Which is accurate. And then we start talking a lot about a lot of stuff ask him about my interpretation of son of my dreams and then you know one thing leads to another I told him about the whole thing like my whole struggle and why I have been struggling with so long and never really seek deliverance or I think that it's okay but I tolerate it.

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You know, I didn't hate it as much as the law hates it, if I can put it that way. So I told him my situation is that I don't watch pornography. I didn't even watch pornography like a lot of people. You know, you get exposed to pornography since you were even 9 years old. I know that's what happened to a lot of children in America But I didn't experience that so I don't watch pornography and a lot of woman will tell you I believe I heard some female Christian youtubers They read Erotic fiction so that is another form of pornography. I don't do any of that. I just Masturbate out of nothing. So when I say out of nothing It's out of something. It's out of the thoughts. It's out of the lustful thoughts that came to me. So I told him I don't understand because I don't know if you said I have a demon or have a spirit It needs a channel to come into me, right? Pornography is a channel, erotic fiction is a channel, demonic music is a channel, but I don't do any of that. So how did I get this thing?

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I think the first time I did it, it was by accident. And a lot of girls can verify that. The first time we discovered this thing called masturbation is by accident. So I believe I was 12 years old and I wasn't watching anything erotic it just happened I believe that spirit came to me that at 12 years old when I just had my um I think it was one year before I had my period so before I was even sexually prepared I have it and ever since then like on and off not like intensely but on and off so I told this man of God not all this detail but I just tell him because I want to find out why this happened and when I see other people's testimony about deliver from masturbation It's always about pornography in some way and I was so confused. I was like, it doesn't apply to me. And he told me something that I knew already, but I didn't see this apply to me before. So he said there are three different types of sin.

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There is one type called iniquity. Iniquity is usually a curse. It's usually in your bloodline. It's usually passed on to you through generation and you don't even know about it. I mean if my family member have anybody who did fortune telling which I share in that video too. I was delivered from fortune telling the curse of fortune telling. I broke that curse just by praying the Derek Prince curse breaking prayer in the bedroom and if your family has you know divorce you see this pattern keep happening you can see that but masturbation come on like who knows who will tell you it is it it's unlikely that you will know your family member doing that and even not just your family member, even your spouse. They are doing that, are they going to tell you?

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No because it is something secret, nobody wants to tell other people and that is where the devil comes to play because the Bible says if we confess our sin to one another, he has faith and love to cleanse us of all sins and deliver us. So when I tell the man of God all of this before he even started the deliverance, he said it already lose power from you because you have confessed to one another. It's already lose its grip on you. And I was like, no, I want full deliverance. I need someone that is more powerful than me to free me from that iniquity this man was actually trying to leave but he couldn't you know as a man of God he knew there's nothing matter more than what God want him to do so he did a full deliverance on me and let me tell you what happened okay so he just tell me to look at him in the eyes You just call my name Alice. Look at me. Look at me and As I was looking at him, I stopped zooming out. I Don't know if you have that what would you call it? I was entranced I was in a trance so that happened, you know When you when God is giving you a vision when you see a vision, that's what you that's how you feel you're like in a trance you are like you know you're zooming out so within the first five minutes when i was looking at him when he started doing deliverance probably lasts for 20 to 30 minutes so that's how long it takes why is it that?

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so first of all, I got a stubborn demon that runs in my bloodline that is in iniquity at the beginning he just doing all the deliverance things I already feel that something is changing in my spirit but it hasn't manifested in the physical like you if you see some deliverance you will see people start throwing up some filthy stuff you will see people start screaming you will see people stop rolling their eyes back all kinds of crazy stuff and at a certain I started crying out loud. It was a great, deep, painful moan that just break out of my lung. It was not loud, but it was intense. Something hit me and that spirit start crying and after that what I remember after that was like so people in the house they are very experienced in this okay we were all crazy spirit filled on fire for God Christian they didn't know what's going on immediately they bring a trash bin over you know just in case I'm gonna start throwing out but I So what happened is I start crying and it break out that deep painful moan out of my lung and then it was at a certain point, okay, at a certain point about approaching to the end of it.

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This man didn't just leave me like that. I thought he's just going to say all the words he need to say and then he's going to go and let the Holy Spirit finish the work. No, because he is very experienced in it. And you know, most guys, they struggle with pornography themselves, and they got delivered. And they start, you know, become a man of God. They are more experienced in deliverance. They are more experienced in, especially, delivering people from masturbation. Okay? Okay So he knew the spirit hasn't come out of me. He know it is stubborn So he starts speaking about delivering the the spiritual spouse Like I don't think I have a spiritual spouse So when he started doing that I'm telling what is gonna what actually happened his hand on my head The back of my head and my hands are down on my thighs he can't see it and my hands start having this spasm like it just spasm i hope i pronounce that right okay just let me check both hands my finger is stiffened all of the finger okay so right hand only the middle uh the pinky finger entire left hand was numb and all my finger was stiffened it was like it was twitching in a really weird way and this is the good part okay this is the good part my ring finger folded like this, like my entire finger like this, but this one bend is so like this.

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And at that point I already knew it's out. I already knew this is the spiritual spouse and I show him my hand and when I show him the hand still cannot straighten and then he starts straightening it he is like out out out and then he said yeah she's married so what he was saying is that she is married to a spiritual spouse, your ring finger is bended. I would not believe this if not for that I were crazy enough. If not for that I just wanted to get it out I don't want this anymore you know even during the deliverance process there are quite a few certain points like I wanted to hold it back you know you need to fully surrender you need to get it out get it out get it out surrender don't try to be oh I'm strong I don't need nobody. If the pride comes in, that deliverance is not going to be successful. I experienced that, I can feel that pride coming up when the demonic spirit is trying to hold on to me. And I can feel some part of me is like getting, the pride is getting in the way and don't want to let go of this demon, this spiritual spouse. So when we talk about spiritual spouse, what is a spiritual spouse? There's no such thing as a spiritual spouse. We call it that way because essentially they are just a certain type of demon that function in the spiritual realm so when you masturbate in my case it's thoughts and it doesn't matter what thoughts are in your mind and for people who watch pornography it doesn't matter which porn star you are watching today when you masturbate you are having sex with that demon, that spiritual spouse.

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It's the same spirit, even if you are masturbating to a different object, to a different person, to a different carrier of that demonic spirit. me and this man of God who did it for deliverance to me was guiding me each step to breathe out. I take quite a few deep breaths at the end of the deliverance to let go, to completely surrender and that's what I feel at the end is that you feel that air that wants to come out. So maybe for me it was not like something throwing up. It's more like air, the spirit that needs to go. So I breathe them out and I take such deep breath that is crazy. Like I usually almost like people who are drunk and when they finally and they take a deep breath and breathe out and because finally they can breathe you know and at the end of it he prayed you know, with this man all together, three Christians and myself were praying in tongues and we finished after that. And it's an experience that I will never forget.

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And I'm sharing this to you today that my ignorance or my limited knowledge about spiritual spouse Because I thought you know I have very limited knowledge about this I thought people Who have wet dreams as spiritual spouse? I thought Since I don't watch pornography Since I don't have a channel you know my struggle with masturbation is not demonic you know because i didn't open the door but somebody in my bloodline opened the door it's an iniquity it's a it's a it's a curse that no matter how much and regular i fast i pray i read a bible and a lot of you know that I have been a decent Christian that is disciplined and always seeking the knowledge and trying to be free.

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But there is still something I don't know. And after the deliverance, I can tell you, I just keep wanting to laugh. I keep wanting to laugh. I feel relief finally. And I thought, you know, the only thing I need to break the curse from is my family's dabbling in the occult, my own dabbling in the occult, in tarot card, astrology, fortune telling. There's a lot of things we don't know. You know when we give our life to Christ we're not automatically free from all the bondages, all the strongholds, all the demons. But you know when you give your life to Christ it's the beginning of your full salvation. entire dominion that belong to you, the freedom, the joy, the peace that God wants you to have if there were no sin. As if you have never sinned, that's how your life should be. And this is what I always believe that we shouldn't settle for half-assed deliverance, we shouldn't settle for half-assed faith.

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So, I can tell you, when that man was telling me that while you confess your sin, it already lose power for you, I believe in him, I already feel it as I was confessing and telling all this thing for the first time in detail to somebody I Feel what I feel something is leaving me I feel Something is lifted up from my spirit But I don't want just that I want to make sure I'm good I want to make sure that I'm fully delivered I wanted to dig deeper if there's I want to make sure that I'm fully delivered. I wanted to dig deeper if there's something I don't know there and it turns out, yes, I have a spiritual spouse who put a ring on my finger in the spiritual realm.

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And I don't even know, like I'm married. Are you kidding me? I have been married in the spiritual realm since I was 12 years old. And hallelujah! Get out of my life demon! I am free! And now I wanted to say, deliverance is only the first step. Discipleship is what is important because Jesus said, when an unclean spirit gets cast out from a man. He will travel through waterless land and then he will come back and if he sees the house is swept and clean and empty, he will come back and bring in seven other demons more evil than himself to live in this previous house, aka host. So, when you are isolated, you have nobody hold you accountable, you don't have church, you don't have your support group, the demons will surely come out because they pray after long sheep, you need the lion to protect you, the lord, the lion of judah, you can't be a lone sheep, because you become a target of the enemy, and you need discipleship, otherwise, because the demon knew you have a weakness for them, they will come back, they will see, ok, your house is empty now, you are ready to be re-oppressed again. So this is the thing that Christians cannot be possessed. Because you are possessed by the Holy Spirit, or hopefully you are possessed by the Holy Spirit. And that is what the man of God told me. It is not in you, but it is oppressing you. That is the difference. What is in me is Christ. What is in me is the Holy Spirit, but the demonic spirit can still have a foothold on me, can still prevent me from walking in God's full power. So this is the thing, okay? If you have similar struggle like I did, I say I did, yeah, you notice that, because I'm free now.

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If you have similar struggle, okay, pornography, because I believe, you know, that's something most of us will ignore that is sin. You can easily confess your sin as fornication and and quit, you know? But it's like, that almost provides you an excuse for masturbation because you're thinking in your mind, I'm already not fornicating, Lord, can you just take me, can you just give me a break? Why do you keep having the desire to masturbate? It's not a normal desire, it's not a sex drive, it's demonic. You have the desire, you have that perverted lustful thoughts because there's a spirit. There's a spirit that in the spiritual realm wanted to have sex with you.

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You're in bondage with them. And every time you met a good guy, you met a good woman, they will try to make things go ill. They will try to prevent you from getting married and a lot of you even if you are married um your marriage is not good there's always argument there's always conflict and you start losing uh attraction to your spouse they're not hot to you anymore you stop picking on their appearance like like you in your mind you know you knew you always attracted to them they're so hot from the first date, you are like love at first sight. But all of a sudden, your memory got twisted, your memory got perverted. You start thinking, why am I with this unattractive person? Why did I marry them? The truth is, you are attracted to your spiritual spouse think that they own you. They think that they're jealous. They own you. They don't want you to be with anyone. They don't want you to get married in physical realm. So the struggle is real. I mean I'm serious. I'm not speaking this from out of pride. I hope you can understand it. But who on Who on earth would think that I have a spiritual spouse?

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Who on earth would think that I wouldn't, after doing so much research, I don't even think I have a spiritual spouse. I think, yeah, I, it's just sex drive. Masturbation is because I have sex drive. No, it's not. It's not sex drive. You know, I've been in church and praying over other people, lay hands and pray for their healing and all of that. Every time in that kind of gathering, I can tell you, I feel disqualified to lay hands on people because I think my hands are dirty. I think I am filthy. is going to use my hand that was used for masturbation to raise the dead, to cast out demons, to heal the paralyzed men, to open the blind eyes. I don't think that's going to happen.

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Like deep in my heart, there is some kind of shame that it's not like, you know, I sin again Lord, sorry, I'm unclean. No, for me it's more like it is damaging my calling. It is damaging the purpose God for me. It is damaging the miracle and greatness and the blessing I am about to give and to receive. You can't, you just can't live in sin. You can't not live in holiness and expect that holiness will work in you. You can't expect the power of God when you are holy, he can use you as his vessel. So I'm sorry to tell you a lot of people will say, well we're all sinners, we all struggle with sin, we just never gonna be perfect. That is true. But if there are strongholds like masturbation, if there are strongholds like pornography, if there are strongholds like addiction, you are limiting your potential. You are sabotaging your own purpose.

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And you know what that man of God spoke to me when he was delivering? He was actually not speaking to me, he was speaking to my spiritual spouse, he said you have been stealing so many opportunities from her you have been destroying all the blessings God prepared for her, you have been delaying her breakthrough but what I remember the most, you have been stealing opportunities from her and I knew that for a fact, I knew the devil has been stealing from me. And I, what is worse is that I knew he has a legal right to steal from me. Because I have sinned in my life that give him that legal right. You know, I have sinned and struggled for him to come in and do what he wants me and I would not be able to fulfill my calling as God designed me to do. With all that being said, brothers and sisters, I think even guys, okay, but guys are more open about pornography because it has become almost like, oh, who doesn't watch pornography as a man? For women, it's like most women wouldn't even confess that. I just want to say, the first step is to confess. The first step is to confess your sin to one another. And I want to encourage you, if you feel you will be judged for confessing and look at me I'm Telling everybody on the internet Because I'm done. I'm done with demons and I know for a fact that most people struggle with masturbation and the devil wants you to shut up about your struggle, devil want to shame you to silence and you know what if you confess not only you will that sin will lose its power on you but you will also encourage other people to confess, you will encourage other people to seek freedom, you will encourage other people to get rid of him, to break bondage, you know, so as long as one of us start speaking out, as long as one of us start being honest about our struggle to one another and do not fear being judged because let them judge, okay let them judge, I don't care, I am free, I don't care, I am free, you know, freedom is the hardest thing.

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Okay, I don't see slavery, I don't see bondage, I don't see demonization, I don't see carnality. Freedom is the hardest thing. I am as hard as I can be by confessing my sin because I'm free and I want to encourage you to do the same. Go to your local church, tell somebody in person, someone you trust, someone you feel the spirit is nudging you to confess and have a conversation with them. Don't isolate yourself. You know, I'm a very introverted person. My MBTI personality test is INTJ. I've done that multiple times. Every time, INTJ. So, I'm very introverted. I don't like socializing, but I don't isolate myself. I'm always in a church. I'm always at a prayer night. for a gathering to go to their house. You know, as long as it's with other brothers and sisters, I'm always going. And let me tell you, do I really want to go? No. Every time I can tell you, it stress me out to think, oh, I need to go to that person's house, you know, it stress out any introvert. But let me tell you this, you don't have the luxury to be an introvert in the kingdom of God. You don't have the luxury to be an introvert to function in your anointing. The devil always will isolate you. You know Proverbs said, He who isolate himself seek his own desires.

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You know, you become a very easy target. Why people don't want to socialize? Because you are not supposed to socialize. You are supposed to serve. And let me tell you what's the difference. When you serve, your focus is on other people. It's on their needs. But when you socialize, your focus is on yourself. Your focus is on, okay, how those people perceive me. Do they perceive me the way I want them to perceive? Am I representing myself well? Did I give a great impression on those people?

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You know, you are focusing on yourself and you become so self-conscious and because of that you feel pressure and you feel anxious, you just don't really want to socialize because you are more introverted. God calls us to serve and as a Christian, everyone is not allowed to be on your own because we are in the body of Christ We must be Disciple with other Disciples and Like I mentioned already even if you're deliver if you don't have discipleship You're not free because it won't come back to you So I would definitely not isolate myself from now on, since I was just delivered from a spiritual spouse. So that demon would never dare to come back, because I would not allow him, because the body of Christ would not allow him. At the end of this video, I I want to pray for you and Don't forget to do what I ask you to do Confess your sin to one another Seek for deliverance seek discipleship. Don't isolate yourself Don't isolate yourself And now let's pray Our Father in Heaven, thank you, first of all, for sending this man of God to me today.

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And deliver me from my spiritual spouse, from my struggle with masturbation today. I am free. I am clean. And Lord, by your grace, I pray for those who are listening right now that you will bring deliverance, freedom, and healing to them, that they will be the curse breaker. They will break their bondage. They will cast down their stronghold and their hands are not to do things that are abominable in your sight, but their hands will heal the sick. And Lord, I pray for this precious man and woman of God to stand out, confess their sin to one another, seek deliverance, seek discipleship, seek your kingdom and your righteousness with with eagerness, with hunger, with desperation, with all their hearts, all their mind, all their strength, Lord. I pray that they be filled with the Holy Spirit, and no weapon formed against them shall prosper.

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I command every filthy spirit of masturbation, of pornography, of lust, every spiritual spouse, Let her go Come out you filthy spirit Come out in the name of Jesus Out out out out out Come out Come out in the name of Jesus Lose Him! Hallelujah! Thank you, Jesus! Thank you, Jesus! And Lord, fill them with the Holy Spirit.

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Fill them up with the Holy Spirit. I pray that the Holy Spirit come upon them. I pray that the Holy Spirit fill them. I pray that the Holy Spirit filled and enlightened every dark corner in their heart. Thank you Lord for the freedom in your precious blood. Thank you Jesus. Amen. Please like, share and subscribe to my channel. If you feel this video will help other people, make sure you share it to them. Now until next time, God bless you.